I've not mentioned all the things which I wanted to, but I'm going to make this statement right now, just to put on record the private decision that I've made.
I went to a wonderful party on Saturday night. Danced, played the fun-money casino tables, nibbled delicious canapes... and drank approximately my bodyweight in booze. The party finished at 1.30, and we came back home with the three people staying in our house, and I carried on drinking and made an absolute idiot of myself. I can't do moderation. I get excited about social occasions, and a few glasses takes the edge off and feels festive, but then I can't stop.
And do you know what? Enough is enough. I'm too old to be behaving like this. It's undignified and I don't like it. I spend too much money, I take on board too many calories, I feel remorseful every morning after and I don't want my children to think that it's the norm. I've been very careful not to over-indulge in front of them, but they're getting older and staying up later...
I've given up for a month at a time in the past, but I'm under no illusions that this will be harder. For a starter, none of my friends will understand, and even if they do, they will take it as some sort of reproof. They will think I'm not going to be so much fun. Even my partner isn't exactly chuffed at my decision. His immedate response is that I will be disapproving of him for not having made the same decision.
However I've been considering this for a long time and I really think that I've come to the point where this decision is inevitable.
I feel quite excited about it. Now I've got to find something non-alcoholic apart from water, that I enjoy drinking...
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